Self-Trust


I've tossed around three or four different topics for this edition of the newsletter and none demand my full attention, so I trust that. I've been relaxing into greater self-trust lately. Self-trust looks like recognizing that there are things that only I can see, only I can express, and joyfully allowing that expression to emerge. It looks like leaving tomorrow's concerns to be handled tomorrow, and focusing on what is in front of me today. It looks like flow and ease regardless of my environment and my circumstances.

I see vitriol on my timeline and I wish for the best for the aggrieved. I reach an obstacle on a coding project and I stay with it, believing that I will find a resolution. I notice my desires involving other people and I welcome them, acknowledge them, and gently release them, knowing that a tight grip is anathema to connection. And there's a pleasant curiosity: Will it always feel this good? How can I share this with others? What is my part to play in the life pattern?

I want my wants to be authentic, untarnished by the whirling dervish that is life in 2024. And yet participating in the dance is how I better understand myself, and so I dance.

I'm open to the idea that a vegetarian way of eating is healthier than eating meat, so I'm going to eat vegetarian in August or until I decide to stop.

I walk around a cemetery frequently, sometimes to unwind and sometimes to brainstorm, always to be in my body.

I listen to a weekly audio recording about the gene keys. Each recording is insightful and thought-provoking.

I enjoyed watching the first season of True Detective as well as Horace and Pete.

Austin Kleon shared this image I made in his newsletter:

People on twitter enjoyed this image I made:

I made seven more portals in July, that's nine so far. All portals are best experienced on a computer and with sound on. Portals are my way of contributing something that I believe is sorely missing from the internet today:

Blossoming is about surprise. Disney is about darkness. Deep Focus is about distraction. Snail is about whimsy. Season is about nature. Speedrun is about time. Spotlight is about emotions. Snowman is kind of a wildcard. Solar is about multitasking.


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